Raped by evil

There are demons that have been attached to me that take over when I fight because I have allowed them the power of martial law.  They over-whelm me when I look fight for self-assertion in ideals.  A place of strength becomes an insignificant bump in defense and all my tools of development and my powers in arms are suddenly in the hands of the enemy.  They, in military fashion, engage in acts that I, overwhelmed, partake in only numbly acquiescing with glazed eyes....until the demons are done mocking and destroying that of which they took control; then my eyes close, my self-loathing peaks, and my worth is made quite apparent.

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